Saturday, November 25, 2006

Aw man the holidays are a coming!

I guess I just wasn't ready but Turkey Day came by slapped me in the face and kept on running!I mean I got to eat with my family and all but it went by soooooo fast. I hope that Christmas doesn't do the same. I did put the Christmas tree up and the lights are on the porch but it still doesn't feel like it's that time again. Hopefully I'll get straightened out. ;) I have so much to do. I don't have anything done. No shopping, no gifts, nothing, NADA! I am not like this. I usually have things pretty under control. We'll see what happens.

On another note, I am looking forward to going to school in January. It's been a few years since I've been to school, but I think I'll enjoy it. I feel like I am accomplishing something by getting back in school. I have yet to figure out what I wanna be when I grow up but maybe it will come to me soon. It better because I'm getting older. I'll be 80 years old and still in school not knowing what I want to do. :)

Well I guess I am a little undecisive right now. Maybe next week after all the leftovers are gone I can get back on track. I think the turkey did it. I ate too much this week and so now I'm not worth shit. Oh well, I guess I'll try to get-r-done. I will keep you posted.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Zack, my little hero! :)

My baby isn't a baby anymore. He has came A LONG way. From looking at him he looks and acts like a normal little 3 year old boy. He didn't start that way..............
My little boy may act and look like he is normal but he has Spina Bifida. Zack had surgery when he was only 2 months old. Dr Andrew Parent at the children's hospital in Jackson, MS did a great job on my son. I thank God everyday for what Dr. Parent gave my little boy.

What Is Spina Bifida?
Spina Bifida occurs within the first month of pregnancy and results in an incomplete closure of the spinal column. Spina Bifida is the most frequently occurring permanently disabling birth defect. Seven out of 10,000 babies are born with serious birth defects like Spina Bifida. Every day, an average of eight babies are affected by Spina Bifida or a similar birth defect of the brain and spine.

What Causes Spina Bifida?
The cause of Spina Bifida is not known with certainty. However, scientists believe that genetic and environmental factors may act together to cause Spina Bifida.

What Conditions Are Associated With Spina Bifida?
Special attention is needed to identify and treat condition associated with Spina Bifida. Due to the wide range of neurological damage and mobility impairments, it can be difficult to identify some secondary conditions. Attention should be focused on the psychological and social development of children and young adults with Spina Bifida. Conditions associated with Spina Bifida include mobility impairments, bowel and bladder complications, latex allergy, tendonitis, obesity, skin breakdown, gastrointestinal disorders, learning disabilities, depression, and social and sexual issues.

My son has been spared the conditions normally associated with Spina Bifida, so far. He has been in speech, physical, and occupational thereapy since he was 4 months old. Recently this past summer he was released from all therapies. He is doing well with the exception of his weight. A complication with his esophagus has had an affect on his weight but we are keeping a close eye on that. Otherwise Zack is a normal little boy.
Now with that said. Zack has yearly visits with his neurosurgeon to make sure everything seems to be working right. There could be some problems down the road as he grows and puts stress on his back. I like not to worry so much about the future but his is looking pretty good.

Well I guess the real reason I said all of this is to put information out there to others. I want other people to know they are not alone. Your kid may have a condtion, so what. Mine does too. That doesn't mean that you are the "only one" or that you are "too young" to deal with it. Just make sure that that child gets EVERYTHNG he or she needs. There are programs to get help. There are people that are there to help. Just ask questions and keep going. Even if you don't "feel" like not going to therapy try to do it for the child. Your child will reap the rewards in the end. I'm not saying that it's easy caring for a child with a disability, but sometimes life is not easy. And people will give advice, Doctors give opinions but when it comes down to it the decision is yours. If you don't feel comfortable with something say so. If your doctor doesn't listen to you, find one that will. Just don't give up.

If you are reading this and want to know more about me and my son. Email, messege me or whatever. I want to hear your stories and about your kids.
I don't even know where to start but here goes.My life is changing really fast and I'm trying to figure out what to do and how to do it. I need to get serious about some stuff that I haven't been taking really serious. I got diagnosed with Diabetes last year and didn't do anything about it. Well I got pregnant this past summer and miscarried. This has happened before so I decided to look further into it.I went to genetic counseling and that did not help much but it got me to thinking about the whole diabetes thing more seriously.
I started seeing a Endocrinologist to see where I needed to start. I didn't like everything he said but he finally gave me an answer that no one has given me. He said you have all the classic signs of PCOS.
Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS)
Syndrome, which effects 5-10% of all women worldwide and is a leading cause of infertility in women. PCOS is characterized by infrequent or irregular menstrual cycles, excess facial hair growth, obesity and infertility.


So the more we talked the more I learned that I have been treating symptoms to a syndrome for a few years now. Well I kinda got a little depressed when he told me it would be very hard to continue trying to get pregnant and stay pregnant unless I was willing to work on the whole diabetes thing. That hit hard. It was like stabbing me in the heart.
I've thought about it for a few weeks and now I am going to try to get serious. I see everyday what my father is going through and he struggles now because he didn't take care of his diabetes until he was in his thirties. My dad is only 47 and he will probably be on dialysis sometime in the near future. That right there scares the crap outta me. I am 25 so that means 22 years down the road that might be me. I don't want to be like that. I want to see grandchildren, have a house to myself, and grow old so I can tell everyone how life was in the old days.
I have decided to start taking better care of me for a change. I want to lose weight, control my diabetes, exercise, and just feel healthier all around. I am going to use this blog to write down my thoughts and feelings as I try to reach my goals. With all this said here are some goals and I'll be adding and changing as things happen.


1) My goal weight is 200 lbs. which means I have about 65 lbs to lose. I have already calculated that 1 to1.5 lbs a week will get me to my goal weight by March 2008.
2) Start eating better so I can control my Sugars. I have already started taking the medication and checking my sugars. I will let ya know how that's going.
3)Start the south beach diet. Which I think is going to be the hardest. I dearly love potatoes and bread.
4) Exercising. OMG!!!! I did this one pretty good last year and lost about 40lbs. So I just have to get back into it. I would like to be going to the gym at least 3 times weekly for 1hr.
5)Reward myself when I do good with something material, instead of food. I use food for everything. Sad, mad,happy,excited, etc We celebrate we eat, we are upset we eat. I just like to eat!!!!!


So now that I have my goals written down I feel that I must try to accomplish them because everyone knows now. I have also written these down on paper. So maybe if Iam serious with myself maybe I can Get Serious.